Life Is Not Easy, But I Won’t Regret It

After the ups and downs, finally i woke up from my battle. I almost die, but i choose to breathe again. It’s not my breath, it’s their. The breath of love, the breath of caring, the breath of hope, the breath of strength. It’s magical.

They taught me to accept my condition, my struggle, my weakness. They taught me about maturity and what should i do to nourish it.

They show me that i still worth to love and they keep their promise to always be there for me.

I think, i see the light again.

It’s right before i jump from the cliff. Their voice come into my head.

It chocked me in dawn, the battle. I’m dying on my bed.

But then, slowly i can feel them again. The more they show me love, the more i am free.

So many things i would like to thank about them. So many words and pray i want to ask God for them.

Let them be happy, God. Because they are my hero. They give me their most precious coat and blanket when i’m sleeping on the sidewalk.

I have nothing, that’s why i choose die.

But at the end of the movie, i am alive.

And still i have them and i am breathe.

I am loved.

Finally, i can find my self … again.

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Daughter

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Sometimes, i feel sucks to be a daughter

I don’t have any power to make it double

It’s hard to be a daughter

When am being in trouble

And knowing that i’m alone

But, you know…

Daughter can make a trouble if she can’t handle herself

Daughter…

I should handle this and that

Everyone just look at me like am good in everyway

They don’t know what happend inside

The wave, the burden, the joy, the brokeness, the power that i should gain everyday

To make a day just a good day

I smile

I pray

I try to handle this like always

And throw away my true feelings to be a good daughter

Sometimes, i want to lay down and hug and tell that my day is hard

But, daughter can be like that

Cheer up, daughter!

I wish i can be a gloomy daughter for a while.

#amjusthuman

Ignore The Pain

I jump into the water

Submerging myself and try to survive there

I don’t wanna see the world

I

Don’t

Want!

There’s hurt

I know I will feel the pain if I get up from the water

I realize, what i need is just to walk straight

And ignore the pain

And the source of the pain

And slow but sure,

I lose my breath

#amjusthuman

Intense

There’s an ocean i could dive in
Call me to search what he’ve hided behind that wide smile

There’s a light i couldn’t stand

Teasing me to find out what he burried in his heart

There’s a magnet that makes me always staring at him

Moved my heart to make his happiness my priority

Those eyes, so intense

I know i will always love it…

#amjusthuman

Bed Room

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I Meet You In The Crowd

Suddenly, we met

It’s not take a long time to realize that I have falling for you

Season changes

We move

I’m with somebody else, either you

Laugh and tears

Hate and love

But, we stand still

Our lips make a so so talk

But, our eyes talking more than I miss you

It says

“Am sorry… I have to go…”

It says

“I don’t mean it. I’m into you…”

It says

“I don’t want to hurt you…”

And we keep talking like that

In our mind and soul

Without everybody know

And suddenly, i’m thinking about “When will I see you again?”

#amjusthuman

Love Never Lie

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You have right to still or to move

Even though it will hard to prove

Maybe you can deal with it

Maybe you can not

But, one thing you should know… Love never lie

Friends, lovers, or nothing

It’s not a lullaby you can only sing

Whenever you want

#amjusthuman

Perspective

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I call it one, you call it two

It makes me separate from you

I look around, you look above

It makes us turn on and off

I think it’s big, you think it’s small

It also can’t be judgemental

We can see, we can talk, we can walk

But, you choose to go away from the clock

You are lovely, yes you are

But you told me that you’re lonely

Ding dong ding

I am here all alone…

#amjusthuman

Hated

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People in this world have things to hated
Not because they want it

But, because the stories behind

Some people hate bangs, because it makes them looks like their past

Some people hate music, because their father leave them to be a musician

Some people hate sun, because it remind them to their brokenness

Some people hate to smile, because they forget the last time they’re happy with their parents

Some people hate strawberry, because their mother told so

Some people hate water, because water take their brother

Some people hate happiness, because the last time they’re together they falling too deep

Some people hate yellow, because they live too long with the blue

They don’t want to, but they still do…

Sometimes it just came without any reason…

#amjusthuman